I stayed home today.
I wasn't up to go out.
Some days I don’t want to get out of bed,
today was one of them.

My tooth isn't healing as fast as i thought it would going to be.
I woke up today to find out it was still slightly bleeding.
I rang up my dentist and asked whether it's normal and she said it's okay.
Apparently, the cut was deeper than the other molar which was pulled out last April.
I seriously hope it would healed soon.
It feels so damn uncomfortable and i don't feel like eating for the reason that i am afraid the food will somehow stuck on the wound and it'll slow down the healing.
How I wish i wasn't such a worrier.

Hannie messaged me today and asked if we could hang out.
I was too busy playing the New Super Mario Brothers on the Nintendo DS.
So i suggested us to meet on either Friday or Saturday.
Best is Saturday because Uci is going to be around and i am sure she wants to see Ryu as well.

I am getting attached to Ryu and it isn't good.
He is going back to Japan on February.
It is breaking my heart to have that thought in my mind.
I am surely going to miss him a whole bunch.

My cousins and my aunt are going back home tomorrow.
I should feel happy about it, shouldn't i ?

Phiew. I just had a "small surgery" today. Went to the dentist and she pulled out one of my molar teeth. It's just one of the procedures i need to undergo before they finally put braces into my mouth to fix my overbite. My dentist said that we might need to wait for 2 or 3 weeks for the wound to heal completely and when it's healed, she'll put the braces on. i must say i am EXCITED about this. I have been wanting to wear braces since i was young but yeah my parents thought i didnt need one but as i grew older, my overbite is getting worst. Hopefully, the braces will work and fix my overbite *crosses fingers*

Anyway, i changed my status on facebook to "in a relationship with Ryuta Kawai". I never thought it would cause such a fuss but it did ! Friends who have met Ryu said im a pedophile and im such a sad case hahaha. Others who have not met him yet questioned me about him. Im pretty much sure they would laugh their asses off if i tell them the truth haha.

Well, their curiosity on my relationship status is really understandable. Mostly because they've known me as a PICKY one. Yes, im far too picky for my own good. Sometimes i even wonder if i put the standard too high. Well all i can say is that i think it is necessary for someone my age to put a high standard because i'm no longer in a phase to be in a just-for-fun kind of relationship. Lame excuse, i know. Self-justification for my picky behavior haha.

But seriously, it is not wrong to be single for someone who is turning 29 next week, is it ? It isn't like i don't try to get myself a partner, it's just i have no interest in hurrying the love. And if i can be honest, i am enjoying every seconds of being single. I wouldn't mind to have a loving and caring boyfriend, of course. However, at this very moment i have no interest in having a relationship with anyone. Yes, i am single by choice haha.

So why put the status on facebook then ?
It's for fun and to block this person away from my life.
to make a long story short.. there's a guy who fancies me but i dont fancy him. I told him that i have a bf but he keeps on pursuing me and it annoys the hell out of me.

Why a 4-year-old kid ?
because he's damn cute and he acknowledges me as his girlfriend. hah !

our pics together :





yup. that's my 4-year-old half japanese half indonesian boyfriend :P
check out the last pic, ain't he cool or what ?! hahahaha
a ciggie and a glass of beer hahahaha

okay, don't get me wrong here. I am not, i repeat, i am not a pedophile. I am totally conscious that i am old enough to be his mother and that's HOW I SEE IT. I treat him like my son and i love him in a non romantic way. Doh! i ain't that crazy and desperate hahaha..

so i went to the mall to meet my relative to pick up my watch which i left at the hotel's bathroom the other day. I was dead tired and in a hurry after the wedding that day, i completely forgotten about my watch. Thank God one of my relatives kept it for me. Whilst i waited for him and his wife, i bought myself a medium cup of sour sally yogurt. I have been craving for it since yesterday and i was really happy when i shoved a spoonful of the yogurt into my mouth. The taste of yogurt mixed with the sweetness of fresh strawberry and nata de coco washed away my foul mood. It was heavenly.

After i got my watch, D and i headed off to the south because she had to go to her office and i was meeting up with double H and their nephew, Ryu. When i called one of the H to let them know that i was already on the way to meet them, i could hear Ryu was talking on the background. "Who is it ?" he said. And when he was being told that it was me on the phone, he grabbed the phone and went "Where are you?? Let's meet up soon !" i swear this kid is too cute ! When i finally met them, i was told that he actually said to his mom that i'm his girlfriend ! hahaha..

Cute thing happened when i tried to call home during our late supper. He went "whom are you calling ? are you calling your boyfriend ??" and i was like "nope, i'm not. you are my boyfriend." and then he went "You were calling your boyfriend at H's house, weren't you ?" hahahahaha.. i wish he was at least 25 years older. Damn, life is so unfair !

Let's see..

I was feeling really bad today and I was getting sick of staying in this house. D gave me the idea to go for a walk. So I went and got the dogs out and me and them went on a walk. It was really nice. I thought of how i mess up... about how I guess if it happened it was suppose to happened.
So now I’m going to hope for the best but I'll be expecting the worst.


I can be such a mean person, but I try hard not to be when it comes to a few things.